Friday

Howsit? After a 2 week hiatus I'm wondering...


This is fun. I'm in the process of moving my blog over to wordpress.com to facilitate better communication. blah blah blah. But I was reading today and LOL'd when I came across this page that asked: If you dug a hole through the Earth, where would you end up?

Since the earth is 70+% water I figured Hawai'i would probably dig it's hole to ocean - but no! If we dug a hole from Honolulu we'd end up just outside of Ghanzi, Botswana. Go figure.

See where you'd end up:
http://www.zefrank.com/sandwich/tool.html
and share!

Friday

The Flying Mermaid


Jetlag is a crazy thing, you're not really fully awake or aware or realize that your body is kinda going crazy inside, but at the same time you don't want to miss a thing, each moment, each laugh, each memory waiting to be made.

That's what it felt like when I traded in my fins, grew feet and flew to the "mainland" for the first time since restarting my life in Hawai'i.

Flipping your fins, you don’t get too far
Legs are required for jumping, dancing
Strolling along down a - what’s that word again?
Street!

But I was petrified of it, maybe exactly the opposite of what Ariel was feeling when she wanted to be a human. Frightened of what I'd find when I went back to the "real world" - but more than anything I wanted to be there for my eldest cousin's wedding.

So I flew out of HNL, left side of course and waved "a hui hou" (until we meet again) to the realm that I'd fallen in love with. I flew at 1pm and didn't arrive in Michigan until 6am the next day. The flight is only 12 hours with a change in Seattle. Where had 6 hours of my life gone!? But the thunderous laughter and heart-filling stories of what I'd missed more than made up for the loss in time (plus I knew I'd get it back on my trip home)

Anyway, after a day of rehearsing for the wedding and one ono dinner we turned in. 12am here is really 6pm in Hawai'i. UPSIDE DOWN. I talked to a friend who lives on the West Coast and we chuckled that for once I was ahead time-wise and shortly thereafter a miracle happened - I fell asleep, blissful, intoxicating, righteous radical slumber.

...and the next thing I knew it was 11am the next day. :)
Mom and Dad tried to wake my up at some decent hour, I readily ignored them.

When I finally woke up and wrote in my dream journal it was surreal, I was paddling in the sky above O'ahu, not flying, but paddling, like I was trying to catch a wave. Swimming in air - Sa-weet! My Uncle or Tito Bing Bing translated in this way:

Today is the day of the patron saint of fliers, I was supercilious so I wikipedia'd it and this is what I found:



Saint Joseph of Cupertino (Italian: San Giuseppe da Copertino), (June 17, 1603September 18, 1663) is an Italian saint. He was said to have been remarkably unclever, but prone to miraculous levitation and intense ecstatic visions that left him gaping.[1] In turn, he is recognized as the patron saint of air travelers, aviators, astronauts, people with a mental handicap, test takers, and weak students. He was canonized in the year 1767.

I am no expert on saints but this to me is so cool and kitchy and fun.

Kuya Aris said, "you know what flying dreams mean right?"
shoot, i thought I did - but I've never swam in the air before - so the best I could find are:

"I'm Flying"
http://dreammoods.com/cgibin/flyingdreams.pl?method=exact&header=dreamid&search=flyingintro

Flying dreams fall under a category of dreams known as lucid dreaming. Lucid dreams occur when you become aware that you are dreaming. Many dreamers describe the ability to fly in their dreams as an exhilarating, joyful, and liberating experience.

If you are flying with ease and enjoying the scene and landscape below, then it suggests that you are on top of a situation. You have risen above something. It may also mean that you have gained a different perspective on things. Flying dreams and the ability to control your flight is representative of your own personal sense of power.

Having difficulties staying in flight indicates a lack of power in controlling your own circumstances. You may be struggling to stay aloft and stay on course. Things like power lines, trees, or mountains may further obstruct your flight. These barriers represent a particular obstacle or person who is standing in your way in your waking life. You need to identify who or what is hindering you from moving forward. It may also be an indication of a lack of confidence. You need to believe in yourself and not be afraid.

If you are feeling fear when you are flying or that you feel that you are flying too high, then it suggests that you are afraid of challenges and of success.

In reality, we cannot really fly, of course. Thus, such dreams may represent that which is beyond your physical limitations. In your mind, you can be anybody and do anything. Another way of interpreting flying dreams is that these dreams symbolize your strong mind and will. You feel undefeatable and nobody can tell you what you cannot do and accomplish. Undoubtedly these dreams leave you a great sense of freedom.


Swimming Dream Meaning

http://www.dreamsleep.net/swimming-dream-interpretation.html

Psychological Meaning: Expanses of water usually symbolises the unconscious. Dreaming of swimming shows how you trust the unconscious and are supported by it. You have confidence and are receptive to its creative power. If you dream of swimming underwater this may indicate that you have accepted and are at one with your unconscious. This union is even more apparent if you dream of being able to breathe underwater.

Mystical Meaning: Swimming strongly in clear water means you will achieve great success in love and business. The opposite applies if you struggle or the water is dirty.


hehe... I went from fins, to feet, to wings (sort of) in 24 hours... maybe it was all the wedded bliss rehearsing in the gorgeous church, or maybe it was the steak, or simply the joy of travel. Whichever it was I can't wait to play with this idea in my head. Hope you're day is all you dream and more.


Aloha!

bvw.









Sunday

Like Disney? Can dance Tahitian? GO.



If you like Disney, will be in Hawai'i on the 22nd , want to travel and can shake your hips, why not try out for this!? If I was in town I'd go and do the running man just to say I'd tried. :)

incaberries

Incaberries are my new fave munch 'em - they're delicious and nutritious. :)

check it out:

https://www.noblelifeelements.com/Mar808

Saturday

BIG ISLAND: Part 1

The Big Island of Hawai'i is breathtaking. The vibe is laid back, inviting and uncrowded. The roads are long and well paved; and the climate a conglomeration ranging through 11 of the 13 different world climates. Mark Twain once said, "The climate is simply delicious -- never cold at the sea level, and never really too warm, for you are at the half-way house -- that is, twenty degrees above the equator. But then you may order your own climate, for this reason: the eight inhabited islands are merely mountains that lift themselves out of the sea -- a group of bells, if you please, with some (but not very much) "flare" at their basis. You get the idea? Well, you take a thermometer, and mark on it where you want the mercury to stand permanently forever (with not more than 12 degrees variation) Winter and Summer..." and there you have Hawai'i. In the next few posts cruise along with me and see what there is to see on the baby isle of paradise. Leave me a comment if can. Aloha!


Monday

Oxymoron Alert: Working Vacation



blurry images pass before me
that only time will focus

a Paula Fuga serenade & awake I lie
pink perfection sunsets sweep
Adventure's beacon lingers by

windy rainbows and upside down
waterfalls
whisper softly sweetly

saunter

a walk
a stroll
a jaunt
a hike...
pieces of puzzle
a place into fall

mango softly scents the atmosphere
sounds of buzzing bees brush eardrums
previously forbidden

Pele rocks dreams awakened
like baby's first fire found
and floes of lava erupt
surrounding

fear and frustration
frustration and fear

vacate vacating vacation

peace
is
the
prize.










Wednesday

Prep Trumps Plan







Horoscope:

Scorpio
It may seem as if the solution to your current problem is hidden in your past, but it might not be so simple to recover the key memories you are seeking. You would like to have the time to reminisce, but duty calls in the present moment, pulling you away from your reverie. There's no need to dwell on your disappointment now, for the missing information is more likely to resurface once you let go of your attachment to finding it.

and off we go!

Tuesday

The Left Thing

Today let's talk about doing the left thing,..

We spend our lives trying to do what's right, the right thing, dating the right person, toeing the line, counting the

calories, prioritizing our to do lists... asking ourselves, "what's left for today?" Maybe sometimes we need to stop and answer that question... or question that answer - and do the thing left to do - the one you inwardly wish was at the top of the list but just keeps tripping off, lower, farther away from your constricted vision.

This week I'm gonna experiment and try to do what's left - smile at that person I wouldn't have thought twice to smile at, listen to that person that just needs an ear, and go to the place that's scary because I have no idea what lies there...(i.e. a volcano with a crazy fire goddess, no offense Pele)

Cuz that's what's left... those places where you're always guessing, never knowing.

If you never try new things, how will you know if what you're doing is really the best way, the most efficient way, the way that works for you? So I encourage you to do the "left thing" and maybe it'll help with figuring out what the priorities really are, not just what they should be. Tomorrow I fly as far left as I can without leaving the islands altogether to Far Away Hawai'i aka The Big Island aka The Island of Adventure.

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Travel has been a measuring stick of sorts, for relationships - especially with guys... sometimes it's been successful but most times it's been like two male peacocks showing their colors, mine have kinda been more like phoenix feathers, damn competitive Scorpio side...so I'd win...

This trip is gonna be DIFFERENT and probably ridiculous.

72 hours, 200+ miles and "Hawai'i: The Big Island Revealed" with a man I live with but have no romantic attachment to; we wont say there is no dangerous liason because we come close to killing each other daily, but that's to be expected when close proximity between a male and female is involved. But boil it down, and we're similar, not the same, but similar. We can share humor and for the most part ying and yang. I gotta tell you. he's an extremely patient person; you'd have to be to live with me... but we're learning constructive compromisation, (is that even a word?) and see what kind of adventures we can uncover going left.

These next few days are gonna be tragedy, drama or comedy, and I can't bloody wait to share it with you. ;)

For the most part we go holoholo
but along the way
we're gonna reach for the harvest moon, so at least if we fall we'll land on a green sand beach ;)

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Where's in Hawai'i is bonvivantwahine?

Da Hawai'i Drum List:

Swim in a volcano-fed hot spring
Hunt for a couple cascading waterfalls
Wiggle toes in different- colored sand beaches: green, black, white
Be awed and humbled by lava flow at night
Howl at the harvest moon
Grab a beer at the Southern most brewpub in the US
Pick macadamia nuts
Drink Kona coffee in Kona!!


The list will grow as adventures are had... recommendations welcome, No reservations required. ;)






Aloha!
bvw.

Sunday

todotodo holoholo


holoholo happiness

ko'olaus at sunset across from chinaman's hat.





Sundays are for holoholo. Unplanned pieces of perfection await around riverbeds, up unexplored mountains, in succulent sunsets from mistaken destinations. In Hawai'i to holoholo means to wander aimlessly for the sake of wonder and allow yourself the surprise of pleasure along the way. I've found it to be the local way, the very essence of Hawai'i time and the innate charm of cruisin' with no ulterior motives. Maybe that's why Sundays are always so special, and why I try to keep my frame of mind thinking most days can be a Sun Day.


my bro and sis


waterfall hunt of the week: liliuokalani botanical gardens aka ghettoville

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Big Island Adventure Prep Day 2:

Random clause: You're only too random if you go out of your budget... Right? But then there's the other side of it that going to Big Island is a like a mini-vacation, like taking a daycation to the North Shore or driving from Long Island to upstate New York for the fall colors, that puts a person in a "tourist" mentality. If given the choice I'd almost always choose being a traveller than a tourist, but am all too familiar with thinking like a tourist from my work in hotels. When you're a tourist, money is not a matter of extreme importance - that's what credit cards are for. For many that travel going to a new place may be their one and only chance to experience their once in a lifetime, so you buy the $300 Broadway ticket, you take the $200 helicopter ride over Na Pali, you swim with dolphins at Atlantis, because these are the things that guidebooks call "the real gems."

One of the most beautiful things about Hawai'i is that there are tons of gems that have a low or even nonexistent impact on your wallet. So let's do an experiment. Let's set a ridiculously low budget and see how many adventures we can find ourselves in.

Sashamon ladies at Buffet's

Of course there are things to consider - like the $3.22 gas prices that will probably be even more expensive on an "outer island." But we're back to the random clause: You're only too random if you go outside your budget, and this is not just monetary - this means physically, mentally,spiritually - - compromising and being untrue to yourself...
bubbies!

Moving here and living life as I have has taught me that experience is a state of mind and living life on a heavy rotation allows you to keep crossing things off that drum list. But it's all about preparation - not so much planning, I mostly plan by not planning and let life take me since it gives you what you need; but preparedness is another issue, not rules but guidelines - so that when you have the experience you know you're relatively sure you'll arrive with a smile on your face and an experience no one can take away from you, ya know? I'm practically imperfect... A realist with a hot air balloon heart, a head filled with silly ideas and a drum of dreams to fill. But it's like they say - "What would you attempt if you knew you could not fail?" How do you know you cannot fail if you never try?
i'm a fish person.

Ok, enough random for today. I'd love it if you'd leave a comment and share your thoughts with me. Promise I won't bite... hard.

p.s. - In case you're interested, the dolphin tour we took on Monday last is called "Dolphins and You"
You can check 'em out at http://www.irukahawaii.com/dolphin-culture-tour. But I'm pretty sure the video spoke for itself. ;)

bvw.

Saturday

Couture vs. Nogueira & Big Isle of Hawai'i



I'm at work with my friend Tin to get some fish tacos at Margaritas on Ala Moana and it's packed. Wtf? Ritas is almost never packed since Buffalo Wild Wings moved in upstairs... but today is different - UFC is on the tube and the island is out in full force. I don't know much about UFC except that it's a mixed martial arts event that fascinates my voyeuristic side - it's a lot like watching a budding romance, maybe bromance is a better word... the embraces, tussling, bruises, etc.; I want to look away but it's mesmerizing.

If I was in a dark alley at night I'd probably be more worried about a guy named Minotauro than one named Couture - Part Man/Part Bull in the labyrinth working fists on a Versace dress.

In the meantime I just bought a ticket back from Kona, Hawai'i to Honolulu, O'ahu. I never could understand why all the islands had such cool names while the youngest sibling got stuck with "Big Island." In actuality Big Island is named Hawai'i, duh.


Anyway, wanted to know your thoughts on fun activities you think I should explore, what you'd like to see pictures/videos of, etc. for the planning stages. I'm thinking of flying into Hilo and driving the southern route around to Kailua-Kona for a Quarter of a Century bash on Friday.

Leave a Comment. Mahalo.
bvw.

Friday

D-d-d-dolphins.

Dancing with Dolphins:



I just rewatched the video: In case you were wondering what this symbol:


(yes, i know, we're posers) means - it's a shaka. Last summer when I went skydiving for the first time I looked it up.

Definition: Shakalaka/Shaka: The essence of excellent, good, yummy, attractive, exciting.

Oh yes please gimme more of that.
So here's sending you a shaka and happy friday. =)

bonvivantwahine.
maluhia☮ hoku☆ aloha♥
follow your peace, your dreams & your heart.

Monday

Hit the Ground Running

Idioms are always fascinating to me, especially being surrounded by a plethora of new languages, Japanese, Hawaiian, Pidgin, etc.  But my first thought for this manic Monday is closer to American shores - the phrase "to hit the ground running."

Obviously one isn't supposed to literally pick up a stick and smack da ground, so what does it mean?

TheFreeDictionary defines it like this:  
Hit the ground running:  (mainly American) Fig. 1. to start the day very energetically; 2. to immediately work very hard and successfully at a new activity.

Word to your homieness.  As many go back to school today, begin new ventures, jobs, lifelong passions I'd like to offer you this phrase.  Hit the ground running, dancing, flying and the world is your oyster.  What you offer the world is what'll be reflected back to you - so be excited at the prospects of the week ahead, smile at yourself as you run out of the house and hold on to your butts, it's gonna be a rollercoaster ride =)

As for me, this Monday I'll be writing, dancing with dolphins in Waianae, and hopefully checking out Makua Cave on the West side.  Makua is the mythical birthplace of O'ahu, and in Hawai'ian means "parent."  Since parents know best, "makua no ka oi", I'm 100% down to boogie.  Happy Monday friends.  Check ya later.

bvw.

Sunday

Sunday Kind of Love

Etta James in all her infinite wisdom crooned:

I want a Sunday kind of love
A love to last past Saturday night
And I'd like to know it's more than love at first sight
And I want a Sunday kind of love
Oh yea yea

and it reminded me that there's nothing like some good ol' jazz & blues to help you see "la vie en rose" when your heart's a little bruised. <3

The sliver moon smiled as we left Olive Tree Cafe with our souvlakis, (ahi and lamb) and ambrosial Greek red from Oliver next door. Oliver is a little wine shop extension of the beloved Olive Tree with a small but well rounded selection of wine, plentiful selection of beer by the bottle and the first place I've found Kepalogravieras, a delicious Greek cheese I'd been missing from Astorian days gone by.

We arrived at Ward's Rafters just a little after 7pm and climbed up to the third floor on tiptoes of excitement.

Ward's Rafters is simply that, the third floor of Ms. Jackie Ward's home tucked away on Maunaloa Street. Once a month she hosts a delicious little-known musical act of varying genres to a house packed literally "to the rafters." I couldn't help but feel a little like Alice down the rabbit hole as I passed the triplex threshold. It was something akin to walking into Crif Dog's on St. Marks in the East Village, lifting the vintage telephone palms clammy with anticipation, and being invited by the haughty hostess, no reservations needed, into PDT, ("Please Don't Tell" for New York tenderfoots.) the sumptuous speakeasy sequestered behind the booth. If you ask the counter crif about it they'll shrug and say, "Don't know whatcha talkin' bout." You gotta walk in there like you own the place, walk straight into the booth, pick up that phone and hope Little Miss on the other end is feeling compassionate.

Back to the Rafters. Millicent Cummings, et al got the crowd buzzing, whooping, closing their eyes and clapping and by the time "I'm the Special Guest" Darby Slick joined in with his double guitar we might as well have been sitting in a street cafe in New Awlins. My favorite song of the night hands down was Rick Smith's Muddy Waters cover of "I'm a King Bee". The honey just dripped from his fingers and lips, each Bzzzz more like a sting. (Note to self: If you ever need to massage your heart just listen to some blues.)





bvw.


The Olive Tree Café
4614 Kilauea Avenue
Telephone: 808.737.0303

Ward's Rafters

3810 Mauna Loa Ave



Puka Panty Guy

Saturday

Looking for something fun to do tonight?

"BLUES TO DIE FOR" on SATURDAY, AUGUST 22nd atWards Rafters, 7:30 PM. Put together by.... MILLICENT CUMMINGS, Guitarist and Vocalist.
MILLICENT is a 25 year Award winning Singer, Songwriter, Performer, Multi-Media VisualFine Artist, Producer, raised all over the country and educated at Cornish Institute of the Arts . She has traveled to India, Europe, Mexico, Canada and found a home here in Hawaii. And she has put together a unique group of Blues musicians for this Sundays program....
Here's the line-up:
RICK SMITH, Guitars and Vocals. Founder of the Honolulu Blues Coop, Rick is a Rafters
favorite and we're always happy to host him here.
STEVE BAZO, Bass. Another new Rafters musical surprise!
ED SPURLIN, Harmonicas. From Lake Charles in Louisiana, he has played his harmonicas
all over and has a special affinity with this rich folk instrument.
LINDY ? ...Percussion. He has also played "all over" and is currently working with
Rolando Sanchez, Mike Love and Paula Fuga, so obviously he's a Latin player. And on this
day, he's going to play "the Blues" with maybe a "Latin" touch.
Another new Rafters musician!
DARBY SLICK....A Special Guest...a welcome musical surprise for Rafters. A noted Big Hit
Songwriter (Stormy Monday), who has played with Ali Akbar Khan (India's greatest Sarod player).
These musicians play the "Real Blues" as this classic American folk genre has evolved
in the Chicago area., though Millicent roams musically all over and will also be playing
some of her own compositions and is sure to turn to some classic jazz standards.
I've just heard that Pierre Grill will be recording this concert and maybe we can persuade
him to attack the keyboard with his Parisian Jazzy touch.
All in all, this is going to be an evening of "happy", "Jazzy" Blues.
Come early with your picnic goodies and meet the musicians. We'll have the place
cooled off by 6 and parking is best on one of the side streets (15th or 16th).
Call me if you feel the urge or want to settle one of the worlds great problems.
Aloha, Jackie - 735 8012
Ward's Rafters (3810 Maunaloa Avenue,between 15th and 16th Avenues) is the big three story house in the back. Do not go to the house on the street.


I was turned onto this at a housewarming in Manoa this week. It happens once a month - don't miss it!

For those who can't make it I'll post some pictures/video so you can be there is spirit bvw.

Wednesday

Super Random

Our lives improve only when we take chances - and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.

Walter Anderson

On a random hump day I get a phone call at 7:30am. Hawai'i Time. Sweet Jessica Tandy, it must be someone from the East Coast since even my mom knows better than to call at this hour.

Turns out a friend of a friend of a hooha is looking for someone to drive their car cross-country from Alaska to the middle of nowhere and who better to call than the Queen of Randomness who might actually consider this hare-brained idea.

In my head, the first response was "Yes, absolutely! Sounds like an awesome adventure!" especially if they are willing to pay for the trip expenses. But the wafting wind of reason blew my way and reminded me to say, "Can I think about it?"

{This is uncharacteristic in several ways since saying "No" is one of those things that I have the slowest of learning curves on, and to turn my back on adventure is simply just not done in my world.}

Of course by "Can I think about it?" I meant, let me talk to as many people as I can get a hold of to screw my head on straight as I have willingly and on several occasions jumped out of airplanes (perfectly good ones) and surfed at twilight (read: sharks).

I got, "What kind of car is it?" as the first question from each testosterone driven being followed shortly thereafter with, "Why wouldn't they just ship it?"

I didn't even think to ask these questions when the opportunity presented itself.

But I suppose that's why men and women are different. It didn't even occur to me that the one time I had to change a flat tire was in college, in the rain, wherein I lasted approximately 10 minutes before calling AAA and that if I was driving someone else's car on their dime I wouldn't have time to explore therein negating the entire purpose of the venture.

I don't even have a bloody car in Hawai'i much less have driven for the sheer length of time I'd need to stay awake for that kind of vagabondage, alone anyway. The Alaska part would've been one thing, even British Columbia has it's draws, but then comes middle America - - and I begin to ask - WTF am I going to do with myself in Wyoming? and what happens when the sound of the voice within my head starts answering itself (which I guess would happen somewhere around day two and three quarters)?

But this is all irrelevant.

What got me was that on three separate occasions, by three separate dudes that I trust and respect (I didn't dare ask my chick friends... they would've all said DO IT! just get compensated...) said to me varying degrees of , "at the end of the day, I know you're gonna do whatever you want anyway but I'm worried about you. Number 1 because you'll be alone and 2 because you're you (read: donksai, not gonna look like everyone else for a change, and not exactly a jasmine of all trades) ." It was the "I know you'll do whatever you want" part that got me. The advice wasn't in terms of commands or you cants it was simply, "I'll worry for you" and when I was honest - I knew I'd worry for myself.

So, new plan. I'll figure out a way to do a cross-country road trip on my own terms, in my own time, not when there's a deadline looming over my head and the responsibility of others rushing me to a finish line not of my choosing. I don't want to be the astronaut who forgot to look around space because she was too worried about the mission, ya know? ;)

So, I sum up - taking chances doesn't always mean doing the craziest, randomest thing out there. Sometimes it's working as hard as you can to realize that goal you have that is so tantalizingly close you can taste it and understanding you're on an adventure right this very minute...

In the meantime, T minus 2 days til 50 turns 50. Party about to commence!

Oh, and I made banana french toast for the keep your fork party. It was a bunch of sickies so don't feel bad that you weren't invited. We simply had a party in our quarantine.

bvw.








Get Better Soon


Here's hoping good vibes fly on quick wings and speed you to recovery =)


Monday

Tough it out Tuesday!

What was it Ponce de Leon sought? Oh yeah, the "fountain of youth". People get sick, it's part of the human condition. Before Hawai'i (BH) I thought, "Man, people must never get sick there. There isn't winter...how could you get a cold?" Lo and behold, 4 of my compadres are sick and I have a fever. To add insult to injury I skegged my leg... wait for it, while walking down the street to take a flower picture, it would at least be semi-cool if it was a surfing/hiking injury but alas the Waimea Canyon impressed on my leg is simply cause I'm donksai...

or maybe it's because I really have stumbled upon the "fountain of youth", Hawai'i with her oceans and seas, waterfalls and blue bays; since youth is simply the stage between childhood and adulthood, and if nothing else I am growing up in Hawai'i. The movie in my mind rewinds and I see the 50, 60, 70 year old uncles and aunties surfing beside me in the ocean. The Joy Luck Club hiking Kuli'ou'ou next to us without breaking a sweat, and I smile.

People have asked me - "when are you coming back to reality?" This, to me is the sincerest form of reality - the reality of dreams. It is possible that everyone can find their own "fountain of youth" per se; to some it may be the bustling grind of the city, others slow days spent in the South, some the sweet familiarity of Home, and others discover it on their 7 to 10 day vacations to Elsewhere, we are all capable just not always inclined. The important thing is to realize it when you find it, that's the trick... and the treat, too.

Anyhoo, back to the topic - - youth. What do kids do? They fall, get into scrapes, get sick, bleed a lot, bruise a lot, break a lot, cry a lot, smile a lot - and most of all, they learn a lot! Hitting close to home yet? You know what, this very minute I can feel the blood pulsating through my veins through the gorge in my leg, the white blood cell warriors off to fight their battle, and I'm glad to feel alive... when the fever inside me heats me up like Thai curry I say Get busy livin' or get busy dying!

Living has it's drawbacks, like how I can't get in the water until my wound heals, (stupid germs). I will miss her, I will yearn for her, but in the end the reunion will be all the sweeter. A stranger on the street saw me cursing out my foolishness and said, "Keep your words positive."

He was talking Gandhi to me!

“Keep your thoughts positive because your thoughts become your words.
Keep your words positive because your words become your behavior.
Keep your behavior positive because your behavior becomes your habits.
Keep your habits positive because your habits become your values.
Keep your values positive because your values become your destiny.”


All I could say was "thanks" before run/limping home...but at least he got me to stop cursing.

This brings me to the reason for my smiling at the water symbol yesterday. Masaru Emoto wrote a book called "Hidden Messages in Water," extolling the power of positive thinking around water, and what are we friends, if not 70% H2O?
Check the vid for more=)

I have made a montage for friends old, new and those I've yet to meet - to wish you wellness and health, get well soon, or as a challenge to do something to shake up your day so you'll have a reason to recover.. I promise, it will make you stronger. I'll upload it after I wake up from my TheraFlu induced slumber.

When all else fails I remember my fabulous former roomie from NY who instructed, "Do not go anywhere without your GSE!"

"Huh?" I asked blankly.

"Grapefruit Seed Extract. It's a natural antibiotic that won't kill the good digestive bacteria like penicillin will." 7-10 drops in something sweet, 2-3 times daily, no longer than 10 days."

"OK, thanks. Peace out!"

Monday Musings

32 minutes and 32 seconds. That's how long I spent speaking with someone who makes my world glow. It's funny, most conversations I have on the phone barely reach the 1 minute mark - especially during the day when minutes are precious. Talking at night is different - "night minutes after nine!" I madly txt people who call... "let's talk when it's free!" but a languid mid-afternoon talk with someone you can't stop laughing with until your side hurts - that's pretty priceless.

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Last night I worked a video gig at a country club in shorts and flip flops... my evil plan to take over the world slowly taking fruition. It was a Filipino party so at the end the hostess with the mostest fixed us "food to go." I'd forgotten this world of dancing electric slide in high heels, but this was even more exotic. Along with the break dancing there were performers of hula and tahitian dance; Hawai'ian style baby.

This morning I got up - put on my swim suit and what I was wearing for da beach and went to an interview (definition: A formal meeting, in person, for the assessment of a candidate or applicant) it was phenomenal, we soundboarded ideas and came to mutually beneficial arrangements while eating acai, wearing flowers in our hair. I tried the alternative, walking from hotel to hotel in a hot and stuffy suit, pearls - check, resume - check, black 2 inch heels to pound the pavement - check. By the second block I was percolating harder than my coffee maker. This was different... at the end we bid each other Aloha and sealed it with a hug, as I walked away I smiled, "Off to my board meeting... with my surfboard of course!"

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I've found that when I drink coffee with half and half I enjoy the ideas/thoughts/musings that cross the folds of my mind so much more than when I use skim. Sometimes your brain just needs the fat. It's the same with sugar; in the past I had been artificially sweetening my existence when BROWN SUGAR was regularly available and running at the gym when mountain trails called my name. Now I pour the half and half liberally, sweeten my cup with brown sugar or Big Island lehua honey and let the trails of the mountain work on my hermit crab outer shell. It's moments like these when I realize I got the "Lola Popping" gene. Lola Popping is my great grandmother, soon to be turning 100, still waking every day to a walk, picking flowers from friend's yards she yet to meet, and when scolded sweetly says, "I'm so sorry, I couldn't help myself, they're just so beautiful!".

Her life reminds me of a passage I read in King Kalakaua's The Legends and Myths of Hawai'i:
His joys & griefs are centered in the present, and he broods but little over the past and borrows no trouble from the future.
I'd like to share that gene with you and gently suggest: Do what you wanna do, say what you wanna say, feel how you wanna feel! Just keep it honest and it'll keep you in sync with you.

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Joking around I told someone - "You can't give yourself that title unless you can deliver." I'll leave off the subject to ignite your enthusiasm.

Banter ensued and it got me thinking, I sit around all day defining things and entitling things. Allow me to paraphrase the phone call:

"You're very dangerous," he noticed in passing. "Shoots!" I said and he went on to explain, "Most people don't write down stuff so they don't get a clear vision of how things really are. They go through life just assuming stuff that other people tell them. You - You write things down... like goals and that is kinda like the law of attraction. I like it because you live more like "geisha, a life" than "memoirs of a geisha." (blogger's note: If you haven't read the former, get thee to a library!) I notice because I don't know what it means to write stuff. I never used a notebook in school."

"Must be nice to have a photographic memory," I interject jealously, "I'd forget my name if people didn't keep calling me by it."

"No but seriously, knowing that you write stuff... a blog.. a book, makes me think about what I say to you - makes me articulate and edit."

"That doesn't sound good. I enjoy our conversations because of the verbal diarrhea." I grin vixenly. "What? I never said my middle name was propriety."

"I don't mean it like that." I hear his eyes roll. "What I mean is, you make me be honest... to think about and define things for myself as I share them with you."

"Oh, word up Homeslice." I finish lamely, inwardly beaming.

So I leave you with this thought. Keep a journal, you don't have to write in it everyday.. but when you find a particularly cool flower, whether it be real or imagined, pen it in your pages. ;)




My journal, it says:

I hear and I forget. (like when i talk to myself in my head)
I see and I remember. (like those leftovers in the fridge)
I do and I understand. (like how my cousin's gonna "I do" in about a month.)

Ziggy Marley John Hancock'd:
"Love Power," I hope Confucius doesn't mind.

The kanji symbol is water. How charming. I didn't know this when I bought it - my crazy sexy cool neighbor translated it for me (Thanks Natsuko - her name means summer, too!). It has nothing to do with the saying but made me smile. Come back tomorrow and I'll tell you why.


bvw.


Saturday

I'm hiking in the rain.. i mean singing, ok - maybe both.

Today I want to take you hiking =)

This is my first attempt at a video blog so be patient with me. Hope you enjoy the adventure ~



bonvivantwahine.
maluhia☮ hoku☆ aloha♥
follow your peace, your dreams & your heart.

Friday

Reflection Rainbow

You know that girl, the one that just rubbed you the wrong way at first and when you hear about her you recoil in a hiss? This is the kind of girl that is going on a girlfriend getaway to which I've been invited. It should be a big group of fun ladies, but this one girl just makes me want to grit my teeth and bare my fangs menacingly. But it's Maui... and seriously, am I really gonna let this one person stand in the way of crossing this off my Hawai'ian drum list?

The answer for me, is Yes. It would appear to be the perfect situation; housing is free, car to cruise in, and partying up the bing bong. But it's not what I'd want - it would ruin my proverbial first bite into a land I've fantasized, and fake planned, and dreamt of for months. I dream about Maui the way 7-year-old-girls dream about weddings.

Maui has always been what I imagine going to mecca would be for holy hikers. Picturing myself climbing Haleakala, so afraid to blink that I might miss something, discovering the elusive silversword, and of, dare I dream it, experiencing akaku anuenue.

In an entry in Yahoo! Travel I read:

"This amazing optical illusion, called “Specter of the Brocken,” is caused by just the right combination of sun, shadow, and mist. In Hawaiian, the spectacle is called akaku anuenue (reflection rainbow.) Some, including indigenous Hawaiians, have likened the experience to seeing one’s own soul."

This is one of those things that I am willing to wait for (impatience is a vice, but I'm working on it) the right mixture of energies/people/weather. It might even need to be something I do all on my own. It has occurred to me that seeing one's own soul is not for the faint of heart. It's not one of those things that a person can just look at a picture to experience, it needs to be done to be understood.

I talked to a friend today - about illusions, and what that means in terms of human relationships with one another. There are those in life that you meet and they just affect you. You don't know why or how, it's not something you can Google or Wikipedia - but maybe that's why they call it "affection". You need these kind of people in your life, the ones that you aren't making any concessions of conscience for, the ones that in moments spent get better every time (and really isn't that the right direction?), when in their presence you can't help but beam, the Yng to your yang still you can't help but question, "too good to be true?"

I do not speak of lovers, though you could call it that, since passion has become for me the bright yellow of friendship rather than red ravishing and randy. Maybe it's more like that mirror sitting in the corner of the room filled with dusty spots. When you look at it you know something's not quite right but you can't quite figure it out. But than the illusion, the glamour is cast and all the smudgies get wiped away and it starts making sense. The reflection you recognize in that other, is the voice within yourself that you never listen to, because who in their right mind takes their own advice? But friends, with illusion comes magic, and that is worth fighting for. When this happens you finally figure out what matters to you and you're okay with refusing to settle for anything less.

So I'll bide my time, and keep my approach positive, but when coming face to face with the soul I'll need to realize, the goal was the journey and the journey the goal.

Tuesday

Meteor Showers and Fading Hurricanes


Perseids

remnants of Felicia


Hurricane Felicia passed O'ahu and downgraded to a tropical depression through the island today.

"The last of the major weather warnings for the Hawaiian Islands have been dropped with only high surf advisories still standing." Writes the San Jose Weather Examiner
and what do you do when it rains on an island? You go surf! (You're gonna get wet anyway so why not do something productive.)

The waves were not the "high surf advisory" we were promised, instead so tiny so we paddled from Queens to Pops to Paradise before the rain began. So beautiful. This adventure happened at around noon so when the sun did manage to peek through the clouds looking down into the ocean was like having a dark veil lifted of an aquarium that my toes happened to dip in.

I paddled so hard for one wave (didn't break, sad story) and pinched something in my neck. poot! So I did the slow one-handed paddle back to shore. It got me thinking though about how balanced the 4 elements are around here. Earth Wind Fire and Water. Maybe this is why people around here seem so happy, each element present, each element awakened. When I got to shore I experienced pure happiness. A massage for the muscles, the mind and the heart. :) I had gotten up wanting to surf surf surf (got some sweet side fins from the roomster) and ended up sore and limping back to shore. The silver lining of course would be the mental massage shortly thereafter. Life doesn't always give you what you want, but it gives you what you need!


If all the raindrops were lemondrops and gumdrops. Oh, what a rain that would be!


I reflect: It might also have been that I was not exuding my normal amount of positivity today... I woke up abruptly, like a poptart - and I now know what they mean about, (forgive the paraphrase) If they wanted us to pop out of bed we would go to sleep in toasters! I was groggy and sore even after several hours of sweet slumber. Thankfully the ocean is there to fix that.

As the storm passes a meteor shower may be visible, happening just a layer of gray away. The stars are dancing above me right now and I can't see it. But somehow it's ok. I'll close my eyes to the sound of the rain, plop plop plippity plop, until a new day arises and dream of the stardance on the broad way above me. ;)


no rain, no rainbows.
A hui hou.
bvw.

Sunday

Local is as Local does.

Yesterday was the first day of the Eat Local Challenge here in Hawai'i. So for 7 days many of my friends and I will eat local, cook local, buy local. It'll take time, more time in the kitchen preparing the food then enjoying meals in our conversation room (it is called this because the tv is banned in our house). So I'll update little by little and let you in on our discoveries. Aloha!

Thursday

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened. - Dr. Seuss

You know those days when you wake up and you don't have a single pimple on your face, your hair is full and shiny uncombed and yet you went to bed super late? This is not about one of those days. I woke up to make coffee and instead of a pot of coffee I got a pot of hot water. The coffee was in the maker, the water too, but somehow I got a pot of water. Then I attempted to surf perfect waves, a DOUBLE rainbow connecting Queens to Pops, and I was junk. Last - there was a boy. A boy with a boat (boys with boats are pirates) a boy I thought of as an 8 on a scale from 1 to 10. But after a series of unfortunate events the boat barely left the harbor. Curses!

It wasn't so much that I was disappointed about the non-sailing. It was more in the way the situation was handled; unapologetic, awkward, hardly a meet cute (high potential, low outcome). Had it been with a more willing partner the haphazardness of the event could have been plenty fun, but it wasn't, and I began to wonder - is it me? A few hours spent commiserating with friends and playing pool and the world was better. It was like seeing the world through a dirty window, much better if untouched, and I slowly realized what lay on the other side was still just as beautiful, just waiting for the pane to be cleaned.

I've always been an all or nothing kind of girl, 99.9% won't do (maybe it's the Asian in me...) so when my Jersey boy up and left (Hawai'i wasn't for him) I had to restart... not only restart - I had to friggin' wipe my hard drive clean and do a complete OS reinstall and believe me... this process is just as hard on this little stretch of sand as it is in the Big Apple.

So I moved - to the windiest block in Waikiki. I started taking my longboard out everyday and asking the universe what went wrong. Why oh wai? or Maybe, 'why oh kai' is more appropriate. When I decided to stay in Hawai'i and walk away from, let's call him Charlie, I felt like I had turned my back on the ocean.

Surf Rule # 1: Never turn your back on the ocean.

But I did. I did because I want to be a writer and I won't write about what I don't know; it takes time to get to know something, someone, somewhere and so I am here and he is there. Now it's just him and now it's just me. But lots of things in life have dings, breaks, imperfect parts. What's important is how we fix them, to not just furiously rub with wax, hoping it'll hold through this one perfect 10-giving day.

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A wave was breaking at the beach today - beautiful, clean, mist off the top, clear blue to the sandy bottom of the ocean. It was a challenge, and I had to choose. Am I brave enough, strong enough, woman enough to ride it? Some people hang 5, hang 10, I HANG ON FOR DEAR LIFE.

In the beginning of surfing we are taught to surf the baby waves with the biggest boards we can handle. PADDLE, PADDLE, PADDLE, pop up! It's a constant undulation of the body adjusting to the motion of the
ocean. Hearing this at the beach today made me think. Pidgin to me kind of sounds like this - up up up down down. up up up down down. For example:

You like go to Wai-kiki?
We go surfin' on da sea.
I make follow in da kine
Wan day soon ya gonna shine.

Even the vernacular is like a wave: cresting and crashing... the highest highs, the lowest lows. But as long as there's the up up up, and only two downs, we're good! But the balance has to be more up than down.

Figuring this all out will take time, a lot of hiking, a lot of surfing and a lot of breaking into cars; I know I'm random - but I like to think of it as living life on a heavy rotation ;)

And now for your viewing pleasure I submit:

The Blanket Break-in.~!






You're only too random if you fall out of your budget.
- Ms. T


Life is hard - if it wasn't I wouldn't be doing it. But you know what... aloha happens.

Have a great day!
bvw.


Get up offa that thing!

This morning I was awakened by
"Ring ring! Wanna go surf?"

"What time is it?", I asked groggily. "Actually don't answer that. I'm just gonna get up, rip my sheets of my bed and make coffee."

While the sun sits in the sky I will do what I can to enjoy it. Plenty of time to sleep you know when. Kandoo Hawaii kama'aina free today. Let's get up on that boat in a blue bay and partay!! ;)

Write more tonight! Hasta.

Tuesday

Thouroughly modern Millie & 'awa.

Saturday Farmer's Market Flowers. I think I beamed for a full minute after seeing these.


Over the weekend I met a Millie, thoroughly modern; a fireball of a woman. We went out to have dim sum at Happy Days in Kaimuki (read: not Chinatown) and I thought to myself, "how could an experience so ordinary be so rare?" Growing up in New York we'd drive to the city into Chinatown, walk to Mott Street and have lunch as a family. So simple, right? Mom and Dad would take turns pointing out the different dishes and we'd eat and enjoy little by little. Although I am Chinese by ancestry (Dad's side, way back), I consider myself Filipina by nature (and in effect a New Yorker by upbringing), I never learned the language. So it was to my delight when Millie lovingly explained:


Dim Sum means "to light the heart"; You usually order one or two things at a time, eating slowly and talking the whole time.
How charming - stick the keys in the ignition, and ignite the heart with bite-size bits of goodness! The table was half and half; half visitors from New York and half people living in Hawai'i. It was the New Yorkers first time having Dim Sum (myself excluded). Initially, I was appalled that they'd never tasted dim sum, with the plethora of establishments lining the streets of lower Manhattan, but turned my frown upside down that we could could share this experience here. The table was strewn with food (one dish at a time only holds when there isn't 10 ravenous people at once): manapua, fried taro, har gow, eggplants with fish, chicken feet, etc. The New Yorkers tried the chicken feet, if even just a lick. Me-ow. Impressive! There's something so great about being there to witness some one's "firsts," first dim sum, first chicken feet. whatever.

A caveat to this. I myself am not particularly attracted to the taste, there's just something in the texture that doesn't vogue with my palate, something about knowing that it's walked the earth and then will be in my mouth that I can't get my head to stop thinking about, but at the beginning of this year my sister and I made a promise to each other. To keep in touch, we'd do something new every day and txt/call/write/holler at each other. It was New Year's Day and we were having Dim Sum -(pause for effect)- that day I tried the chicken feet.

Not amused! My face twisted into this contortion that probably looked a bit like Elvis rolling his upper lip and a bulldog baring his teeth in disgust. But I have this rule - taste three times. If I don't like it after the third time, I don't like it. Needless to say, two more tries later I was still less than thrilled, so now I respectfully decline. But there are other things I thought I didn't like but have grown to enjoy - like 'awa!!

Oh 'Awa (pronounced ava)! The East Coast ladies came to Diamond Head Cove to for a traditional Polynesian cultural experience. How to explain 'awa? hmm... I can only describe the taste as - liquid earth. It derives from a root, you drink it out of a bowl and all of a sudden it's Alice in Wonderland.. at least for me. When you first start drinking 'awa you need 2 or 3 bowls to feel the effect. Then, hold on to your butts. Your tongue starts going numb, music sounds deeper, and I don't know about everyone else but I always have this overwhelming urge to paint something, write something, recite or beguile something. A warning to ye who sits next to me while 'awa-ing, I will talk to you nonstop, I will delight, entertain and amuse as much I can, without shame, while being wholly true to myself, the cursing ceases, while the creative juices don't just flow - they rage. A note here friends: 'awa is not alcohol; it intoxicates without impairment, saves your vital organs for a rainy day, hangover: not included.

It is a drink to be respected as it is rooted in Hawai'ian history and culture; unlike all things in life it is meant to bring happiness and clarity without you losing you.

I am not a hippie. Not by any means, but 'awa just does it for me. Not only does it make me want to create but it has a way of chilling me out without taking away mental acuity... and the dreams! whooooooooheee!
It's like you go into this bubble, right, where it's lucid, but not, but you can't really wake up from it without feeling like you've cheated yourself a little bit. It tells you, get sleep, refresh, renew, FLY, wake up and be the best version of yourself you can be. Shoots, I sound like I'm one step away from dancing naked under the full moon, but I'm unashamed. DHC - (no, not dick head customer) lies under the watchful eye of the mountain and is a hole in the wall you don't want to miss. The food is 'ono, the tunes are 'ono and the girls are 'ono.

p.s. - all you 'Lost' fans out there. Pono, is the 'Lost' Dog and can be seen regularly at Da Cove. He likes to chill, he probably even likes to 'awa.

Eyecandy:

Marcus and Pono surfing

'awa-ing

The famous apple banana wall and my din din. Fish, greens, Marcus' wicked special green sauce and
an English muffin made from taro which is why it's purple. Yum!


Packrat Memeorabilia wall. Bottom center is Marcus with two 'Lost' Ladies and Pono.

I leave you with this essay by Robert Louis Stevenson: for those days when you know you need something, are just a little bit 'lost', but know deep down you just need to take it one step at a time.




An essay by Robert Louis Stevenson
El Dorado


It seems as if a great deal were attainable in a world where there are so many marriages and decisive battles, and where we all, at certain hours of the day, and with great gusto and despatch, stow a portion of victuals finally and irretrievably into the bag which contains us. And it would seem also, on a hasty view, that the attainment of as much as possible was the one goal of man's contentious life. And yet, as regards the spirit, this is but a semblance. We live in an ascending scale when we live happily, one thing leading to another in an endless series. There is always a new horizon for onward-looking men, and although we dwell on a small planet, immersed in petty business and not enduring beyond a brief period of years, we are so constituted that our hopes are inaccessible, like stars, and the term of hoping is prolonged until the term of life. To be truly happy is a question of how we begin and not of how we end, of what we want and not of what we have. An aspiration is a joy for ever, a possession as solid as a landed estate, a fortune which we can never exhaust and which gives us year by year a revenue of pleasurable activity. To have many of these is to be spiritually rich. Life is only a very dull and ill- directed theatre unless we have some interests in the piece; and to those who have neither art nor science, the world is a mere arrangement of colours, or a rough footway where they may very well break their shins. It is in virtue of his own desires and curiosities that any man continues to exist with even patience, that he is charmed by the look of things and people, and that he wakens every morning with a renewed appetite for work and pleasure. Desire and curiosity are the two eyes through which he sees the world in the most enchanted colours: it is they that make women beautiful or fossils interesting: and the man may squander his estate and come to beggary, but if he keeps these two amulets he is still rich in the possibilities of pleasure. Suppose he could take one meal so compact and comprehensive that he should never hunger any more; suppose him, at a glance, to take in all the features of the world and allay the desire for knowledge; suppose him to do the like in any province of experience - would not that man be in a poor way for amusement ever after?

One who goes touring on foot with a single volume in his knapsack reads with circumspection, pausing often to reflect, and often laying the book down to contemplate the landscape or the prints in the inn parlour; for he fears to come to an end of his entertainment, and be left companionless on the last stages of his journey. A young fellow recently finished the works of Thomas Carlyle, winding up, if we remember aright, with the ten note-books upon Frederick the Great. "What!" cried the young fellow, in consternation, "is there no more Carlyle? Am I left to the daily papers?" A more celebrated instance is that of Alexander, who wept bitterly because he had no more worlds to subdue. And when Gibbon had finished the DECLINE AND FALL, he had only a few moments of joy; and it was with a "sober melancholy" that he parted from his labours.

Happily we all shoot at the moon with ineffectual arrows; our hopes are set on inaccessible El Dorado; we come to an end of nothing here below. Interests are only plucked up to sow themselves again, like mustard. You would think, when the child was born, there would be an end to trouble; and yet it is only the beginning of fresh anxieties; and when you have seen it through its teething and its education, and at last its marriage, alas! it is only to have new fears, new quivering sensibilities, with every day; and the health of your children's children grows as touching a concern as that of your own. Again, when you have married your wife, you would think you were got upon a hilltop, and might begin to go downward by an easy slope. But you have only ended courting to begin marriage. Falling in love and winning love are often difficult tasks to overbearing and rebellious spirits; but to keep in love is also a business of some importance, to which both man and wife must bring kindness and goodwill. The true love story commences at the altar, when there lies before the married pair a most beautiful contest of wisdom and generosity, and a life-long struggle towards an unattainable ideal. Unattainable? Ay, surely unattainable, from the very fact that they are two instead of one.

"Of making books there is no end," complained the Preacher; and did not perceive how highly he was praising letters as an occupation. There is no end, indeed, to making books or experiments, or to travel, or to gathering wealth. Problem gives rise to problem. We may study for ever, and we are never as learned as we would. We have never made a statue worthy of our dreams. And when we have discovered a continent, or crossed a chain of mountains, it is only to find another ocean or another plain upon the further side. In the infinite universe there is room for our swiftest diligence and to spare. It is not like the works of Carlyle, which can be read to an end. Even in a corner of it, in a private park, or in the neighbourhood of a single hamlet, the weather and the seasons keep so deftly changing that although we walk there for a lifetime there will be always something new to startle and delight us.

There is only one wish realisable on the earth; only one thing that can be perfectly attained: Death. And from a variety of circumstances we have no one to tell us whether it be worth attaining.

A strange picture we make on our way to our chimaeras, ceaselessly marching, grudging ourselves the time for rest; indefatigable, adventurous pioneers. It is true that we shall never reach the goal; it is even more than probable that there is no such place; and if we lived for centuries and were endowed with the powers of a god, we should find ourselves not much nearer what we wanted at the end. O toiling hands of mortals! O unwearied feet, travelling ye know not whither! Soon, soon, it seems to you, you must come forth on some conspicuous hilltop, and but a little way further, against the setting sun, descry the spires of El Dorado. Little do ye know your own blessednes; for to travel hopefully is a better thing than to arrive, and the true success is to labour.


[The end]


“There are two ways to live:
you can live as if nothing is a miracle;
you can live as if everything is a miracle.” Albert Einstein

Smile for me.
bvw.